Road:
I think the word is apathy...
Maybe quiet reservation...
At this point, I cannot say I
really know.
I decided to try and fast
today...
I am fasting spoken words, and
only responding when spoken to so as not to seem/be rude.
I have spoken maybe 20 words
including the conversation with my son because it was his designated day to
call me. Less than 5 minutes, mostly his voice.
I am pretty sure the drugs are
out of my system, but I still feel some of the leftovers.
Tremors, nervousness, slight
nausea, etc.
I cannot say my lack of appetite
is from the drugs...
I believe that is more of an
emotional response.
Some words:-
Police and deputies: counterfeit,
forgery, felony, fit the description, No one could believe that story you are
telling. Are you being a wise ass? I said don't stop for water or speak, can
you not hear? (The level of misc loud sound was almost deafening coming off of
the walls like being in a bathroom. I heard him say nothing.)
Cellmate: I'm detoxing
from heroin (only after he had been locked up 3 days prior).That's where I
puked because I haven't been able to keep food down for 3 days (four pitchers
full, and a red toxic waste marked bag full of rancid piss under my "boat)
Oh, Medicine time at CADC... They
had me on the medicine list, I later found out, as John Doe #2.
When I asked about the pills they
not only made me take, but had a deputy shine a light in my mouth telling me if
I didn't swallow them, he would make me.
When I asked what they were for,
as I informed them of my arthritis and diabetes, They told me it was to help
with my detox by calming me
down, yada yada yada.
I said, "Detoxing
from what, insulin, tramadol (arthritis med), or
what? No Answer.
There is so much more I could say
and elaborate about and perhaps I will at another time...
For now this is all I can bring
myself to share in this format.
As I said to my brother in a
letter I sent him, "I miss you and I
wish I could tell you how I feel but I can't seem to express it. So many things
in my life have gone so wrong and the only thing I really have to hang on to
are the promises of God.
Unfortunately, God works on His timing."
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